So open up your morning light,
And say a little prayer for I.
you know that if we are to stay alive.
Then see the peace in every eye.

She had two babies. One was six months, one was three
In the war of '44.
Every telephone ring, every heartbeat stinging
When she thought it was God calling her.
Oh would her son grow to know his father?

I don't want to to wait for our lives to be over,
I want to know right now what will it be.
I don't want to wait for our lives to be over,
Will it be yes or will it be sorry?

He showed up all wet on the rainy front step.
Wearing shrapnel in his skin.
And the war he saw lives inside him still,
It's so hard to be gentle and warm.
The years pass by and now he has granddaughters

You look at me from across the room
You're wearing your anguish again
Believe me I know the feeling
It sucks you into the jaws of anger.
So breathe a little more deeply my love
All we have is this very moment
And I don't want to do what his father,
and his father, and his father did,
I want to be here now.

So open up your morning light,
And say a little prayer for I
You know that if we are to stay alive,
Then see the love in every eye.

In a little while from now
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top, will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to whoever
What's it like when you're shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a church
Where peolple saying, "My God, that'sa tough"
"He stood her up"
"No point in us remaining"
"We may as well go home"
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally

To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to who wouldn't do
The role I was about to play
But as if to knock me down, reality came around
And without so much, as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
Talk about God and His mercy
Who if He really does exist
Why does He desert me?
In my hour of need I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally

Seems to me that there are more hearts
Broken in the world that can't be mended
Left unattended
What do we do, what do we do?

Looking back over the years
And whatever that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears
And at 65 years old
My mother, God rest her soul
Couldn't understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start with a heart so badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

IT'S NOT EASY TO BE ME

Bawat patak man ng ulang masinsin
Ay lagyan ng talim
Ako ay sasayi
'Di ko iindahin
Ang ulos at hiwa
Ng mumunting patalim

Ang iyong kalinga ay kanlungang matibay
Lilim nito ay langit na aking tanggulan
'Pag ito'y natiklop, lalantahin ng araw
Lulunurin ng unos
Ang marupok kong buhay

Aking hihintayin ang iyong pasabing
Magbalik ka na mahal.

(Bridge)

Ang iyong kalinga ay kanlungang matibay
Lilim nito ay langit na aking tanggulan
'Pag ito'y natiklop, lalantahin ng araw
Lulunurin ng unos
Ang marupok kong buhay


Aking hihintayin ang iyong pasabing
MAGBALIK KA NA MAHAL...

Date:	2007-08-26 21:21
Subject:	Ikaw Lang ang Mamahalin
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank

Sa bawat pag-ikot ng ating buhay
May oras kailangan na maghiwalay
Puso'y lumaban man walang magagawa
Saan ka, kailan ka, muling mahahagkan

Magkulang man sa atin itong sandali
Alam ko na tayo'y magkikitang muli
Hangga't may umaga pa na haharapin
Ikaw lang ang mamahalin

Puso'y lumaban man walang magagawa
Saan ka, kailan ka muling mahahagkan
Magkulang man sa atin itong sandali
Alam ko na tayo'y magkikitang muli
Hangga't may umaga pa na haharapin
Ikaw lang ang mamahalin

Date:	2007-08-16 15:55
Subject:	What I Did For Love
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable

Kiss today goodbye,
The sweetness and the sorrow.
Wish me luck, the same to you.
But I can't regret
What I did for love, what I did for love.

Look my eyes are dry.
The gift was ours to borrow.
It's as if we always knew,
And I won't forget what I did for love,
What I did for love.

Gone,
Love is never gone.
As we travel on,
Love's what we'll remember.

Kiss today goodbye,
And point me t'ward tomorrow.
We did what we had to do.
Won't forget, can't regret
What I did for love...
What I did for love...
What I did for love...

Love is never gone
As we travel on
Love's what we'll remember

Kiss today goodbye.
And point me t'ward tomorrow.
We did what we had to do.
Won't forget, can't regret
What I did for love.
What I did for love.

WHAT I DID FOR LOVE.

Date:	2007-08-15 22:20
Subject:	Stars
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused

I have always loved Les Miserables. But if I'll be playing a part of that musical, I can never see myself as a Jean Valjean. I'll always be Inspector Javert.

Date:	2007-08-14 22:39
Subject:	My first attempt of making a fool out of myself
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed

Anyway... love the song... iMovie '08 rocks!

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

iisipin ko muna....

yun lang....

registered www.johnmichaelcarmona.com

will do my own webpage using the new iWeb.

life is great (but could always be better).

oras na... dapat na mag-iba. hindi ko na makakaya na tumagal pa ito.

kailangan ko na ng pagbabago at sundin ang gusto ko.

Date:	2005-08-16 16:28
Subject:	I Can't Tell You Why
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful

Hard To Say I'm Sorry
-Peter Cetera

Everybody needs a little time away
I've heard her say from each other

Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
And after all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to

And after all thats been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Just for a day from your body
Wouldn't want to be swept away
Far away from the one that I love

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go

And after all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you

And after all that's been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

You're gonna be the lucky one.

Date:	2005-08-05 21:37
Subject:	August 5, 1974
Security:	Public
Mood:	full

on this very special day, a very special person was born.

and he is my special someone.



we laughed, cried, laughed again and cried some more.

it's been over two years since that fateful day.. and i cherish each day that passed by.

you have helped to be proud of myself, as i am proud of you too.

you're my bagoong, and i'm your kare-kare.

you put flavor, color and meaning to my life.

here's to you're special day, and i know this is actually just the start of something big for you.

maligayang kaarawan at mahal na mahal kita.

"Pangako sa iyo, ipaglalaban ko
sa hirap at ginhawa ang ating pag-ibig
upang di magkalayo kailanman
PAGKA'T ANG TULAD MO AY MINSAN LANG SA BUHAY KO."

Date:	2005-07-20 09:16
Subject:	my lovable pamangkins
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm

would like to share the pics of my 2 very lovable pamangkins, the reason why i still go back to our house in san juan.

here is paco, he's now 5 turning 6 this december



and here's lexi, she just turned 1.



and there is the picture of the two of them na mukha namang hindi nag-aaway (pa!)

Date:	2005-07-19 15:01
Subject:	my manila trip
Security:	Public
Mood:	with sipon

prologue.

a long deserved holiday at last! after several months of being stressed out with the migration to the new system, i had my chance to take a short 8 day break.

of course, the main reason why i went back home is because my mom had an operation, so i made sure i visited her first, and then did my own vacationing afterwards..

here is how my holiday went..

july 8. friday

*fly from sg to clark airport via tiger airways

twas my first time to try this budget airline, not bad for the price! and good think pengster was with me so i had company during the trip. the philtranco shuttle bus from clark to megamall was also a hoot coz the "kunduktora" tried her best to be a stewardess. when was the last time you heard a kunduktora say.. "welcome to the philtranco bus line, our trip from clark to manila will take approximately 2 hours and we will be cruising thru the north express way.... blah..blah..blah.. we hope you enjoy your trip at philtranco and we look forward to your next trip with us." O HA!!!

*stopover at megamall

so hungry!! so had to have a late lunch at megamall.. grabe! i never realized how yummy chickenjoy could be!

*trip to lucban

grabe.. sobrang tagal ng bus trip. ang dating inaabot lang na 2.5 to 3 hours trip by car eh inabot na 5 oras sa bus. paano ba naman eh 1 oras na sa EDSA dahil lahat yata ng intersection eh dinaanan para mag-abang ng pasahero....

july 9. saturday

*fun day at lucban

roy enjoyed the place very much, and ok naman si mommy.. recuperating fast.. kaso may katigasan pa rin ng ulo, kasi naglanggas using talbos ng bayabas... ayun, nilagnat tuloy..

july 10. sunday

*lexi's first birthday party

went back to manila and attened my godchild's birthday party.. syempre bongga dahil hindi magpapahuli si tintin sa pabonggahan! i swear, ang sarap ng food.. sigh.. sumobra na naman sa kain.

*late dinner with a couple of friends.

nice catching up with von, doodle, ferdi and carl! tawanan sobra sa icebergs sa metrowalk.. kebs na lang sa mga iba dun

july 11. monday

*lunch with cappa, strolling along with sweetie.

slow day... met with my bestest friend for lunch and watched a movie with sweetie sa megamall... bought some cd's too.

july 12. tuesday

*off to cebu!!

early morning gising and off to cebu! at pagdating sa cebu eh ayala center ang bagsak namin!! kasi naman over 5 years na nung last punta ko dun.. medyo nakalimutan ko na ang mga dapat puntahan..heheheehhe.

nice coming back there.. medyo mainit nga lang.

july 13. wednesday

*still in cebu

ngayon naman eh sa sm cebu kami pumunta.. hehehe .. nagrereklamo na si roy dahil ang alam ko daw sa cebu eh ayala center at sm cebu lang... majinit jackson kasi sobra eh....

july 14. thursday

*3rd day at cebu, went "touristing", caught up with ray

at last, we hired a service na to bring us around cebu to see the "sights". punta kami sa magellan's cross, sa sto. nino mini basilica, taoist temple, fort san pedro, lapu-lapu shrine, shangrila-mactan etc.. ayan nag enjoy na si roy...

tapos caught up with ray whom last i met was back in 1999 when he got married. nice catching up with old friends, and as usual, ang ginawa lang namin eh okrayin ang mag heswita! bwheheheheh...

july 15. friday

*back to manila

syempre balik na sa manila nung hapon, tapos met with some high school friends nung gabi..... so alam na nila ang life story ko... wala na akong maitatago sa kanilang lahat!!!!

at si rommel!! may utang ka sa akin rommel! bwahahahahaah

july 16. saturday

*toy kingdom and lrt 2

brought paco and lexi to toy kingdom... ang pamangkin ko, di mahilig sa mahal na laruan, gusto nya yung plastic na sword and shield na 300 pesos lang..heheheheh

tapos tanong ko kay paco, "what do you like better, jollibee or mcdonalds?" sagot nya.. "mcdonalds".. naku.. lagot ka kay ninang malu mo.. mali ang sagot mo!!!

late that afternoon eh flysung kami sa cubao para sumakay sa LRT 2.. teka... deja vu!!! mukhang singapore MRT!!! kasi naman singaporean ang contractor pala!! hehehe... i swear, para kang nasa ang mo kio to woodlands MRT, ang kinaiba lang eh maalikabok at makapal ang dumi sa LRT 2 na from Santolan, Marikina to Recto, Manila!

pagkasakay ng LRT 2 eh dito na ako nagsimulang magkasipon at ayun, nagkaroon ng lagnat kinagabihan.

july 17. sunday

*going back to sg, back to reality, philtranco ulit

7 am nasa megamall na ako, nagpahatid kay kuya para sumakay sa bus papuntang clark airport. aba! pagdating ba namin sa clark eh sarado pa ang airport! kakaibang "international" airport ito.. heheehheeh... anyway, ok lang naman dahil di ko na pala kailangan magbayad ng traveller's tax kaya nakatipid pa rin ako....

epilogue.

daming naganap sa maynila habang nandun ako, kala ko nga eh magkaka coup or people power na naman... rally dito rally doon.. pati kami ni roy muntik na magrally..hehehehe

masaya itong trip kong ito kahit sandali lang.. ang best of all.. 95% of the time nun eh magkasama kami ni sweetie.

minsan nga nagtatampo na ako dahil mas kinakamusta pa sya nila mommy than ako..hehehehe

Date:	2005-06-22 17:11
Subject:	Today is June 22, 2005
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

Happy 2nd year anniversary sweetie!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

Date:	2005-06-11 13:15
Subject:	my new iMac G5 20"
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused

now playing with it... and here it is...

Date:	2005-06-07 16:34
Subject:	Apple moving to use intel processors
Security:	Public
Mood:	melancholy

i'm still lost in space with this announcement...
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Apple to Use Intel Microprocessors Beginning in 2006

WWDC 2005, SAN FRANCISCO—June 6, 2005—At its Worldwide Developer Conference today, Apple® announced plans to deliver models of its Macintosh® computers using Intel® microprocessors by this time next year, and to transition all of its Macs to using Intel microprocessors by the end of 2007. Apple previewed a version of its critically acclaimed operating system, Mac OS® X Tiger, running on an Intel-based Mac® to the over 3,800 developers attending CEO Steve Jobs’ keynote address. Apple also announced the availability of a Developer Transition Kit, consisting of an Intel-based Mac development system along with preview versions of Apple’s software, which will allow developers to prepare versions of their applications which will run on both PowerPC and Intel-based Macs.

“Our goal is to provide our customers with the best personal computers in the world, and looking ahead Intel has the strongest processor roadmap by far,” said Steve Jobs, Apple’s CEO. “It’s been ten years since our transition to the PowerPC, and we think Intel’s technology will help us create the best personal computers for the next ten years.”

“We are thrilled to have the world’s most innovative personal computer company as a customer,” said Paul Otellini, president and CEO of Intel. “Apple helped found the PC industry and throughout the years has been known for fresh ideas and new approaches. We look forward to providing advanced chip technologies, and to collaborating on new initiatives, to help Apple continue to deliver innovative products for years to come.”

“We plan to create future versions of Microsoft Office for the Mac that support both PowerPC and Intel processors,” said Roz Ho, general manager of Microsoft’s Macintosh Business Unit. “We have a strong relationship with Apple and will work closely with them to continue our long tradition of making great applications for a great platform.”

“We think this is a really smart move on Apple’s part and plan to create future versions of our Creative Suite for Macintosh that support both PowerPC and Intel processors,” said Bruce Chizen, CEO of Adobe.

The Developer Transition Kit is available starting today for $999 to all Apple Developer Connection Select and Premier members. Further information for Apple Developer Connection members is available at developer.apple.com. Intel plans to provide industry leading development tools support for Apple later this year, including the Intel C/C++ Compiler for Apple, Intel Fortran Compiler for Apple, Intel Math Kernel Libraries for Apple and Intel Integrated Performance Primitives for Apple.

Intel (www.intel.com), the world’s largest chip maker, is also a leading manufacturer of computer, networking and communications products.

Apple ignited the personal computer revolution in the 1970s with the Apple II and reinvented the personal computer in the 1980s with the Macintosh. Today, Apple continues to lead the industry in innovation with its award-winning desktop and notebook computers, OS X operating system, and iLife and professional applications. Apple is also spearheading the digital music revolution with its iPod portable music players and iTunes online music store.

Date:	2005-06-02 07:36
Subject:	cool widget!
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank

just woke up.. using Livejournal dashboard widget.. ultimate coolness!